Paranoia

God damnit! It's making me crazy!!!

Just for an hour of no communication and its already driving me INSANE!!

DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT!!

I'm FREAKING PARANOID!!

WTF happend to me?

I am f*cking... the HELL!

Some things definitely is life changing... and that "thing" drove me into insanity!!

I wish my old self back >>>
The happy go lucky, laid back and always calm kind of guy...

4 am Wake Up Call

Riing.. Riing...

I woke up, stood up... grabbed my phone and started to say.. "Hello.."

Then the voice... the voice that I wanted to hear for a very long time...

I thought I was still dreaming.. I said Hello again and she said Hello...

Now I know that I'm not dreaming... She is the one.. the one who got away..

The one that I hurt so much... I caused pain to her... Talking to me...

Is this good? or bad?

I know she will never forgive me for what I've done...

But I really wanted to hear her voice for a very long time...

I just wanted to become friends with her again...

Just like old times...

But I've done something terrible...

Something stupid...

She was my bestfriend... and was my love...

I'm so sorry for the pain that I've caused...